Emma Mills > Quotes

“A thousand electric cars could run on how you feel when you know that the person you like likes you back. It feels incredible. Like it shouldn't be possible. Of all the happy coincidences to ever exist, it's one of the happiest.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“When you love something, you can't be happy all the time, can you? Like, that's why you love it. It makes you feel all kinds of things, not just happy. It can hurt, it can make you fucking mad, but... it makes you feel something, you know?”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“As far as I was concerned, physical education was evil. You take a bunch of teenagers, make them strip down in front of each other in a locker room, have them don hideous matching uniforms, and then measure their worth based on their ability to chuck balls at a net, into a hoop, or at each other. It was just. Evil.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“Close your eyes, real tight, and then count to three hundred. That’s all you have to do. You just count to three hundred, and when you open your eyes, five minutes will have passed. And even if it hurts or things are shitty or you don’t know what to do, you just made it through five whole minutes. And when it feels like you can’t go on, you just close your eyes and do it again. That’s all you need. Just five minutes at a time.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“The thing about fic is that is comes from love. Characters you love so much, that you feel so deeply for, you'll watch them fall in love a thousand different ways, over and over.”
― Emma Mills, This Adventure Ends

“Sometimes it's hard to know if something's for real? It's hard to believe it, even if you want it to be real. Even if you want it so badly. Sometimes it seems...safer, you know. Not to risk it.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“Dreams don't have to be realistic- that's why they're dreams. You have to work to make them happen. Or else they would be...realities”
― Emma Mills, This Adventure Ends

“It's like a snort," I say. "Like a snort chortle. It's a snortle."
He moves a little closer. "Is that a Pokemon?”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“We should all find something to be weirdly passionate about, don't you think?”
― Emma Mills, This Adventure Ends

“Look at those legs,” Noah says. “Look at that bone structure. Look at those eyes, you could get fucking lost in them.” “You need Google Maps to find your way out of my eyes,” Gideon says, executing an elaborate turn before catwalking back.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“I think about that kind of love as we increase in altitude. How maybe it doesn’t just stand for romance—maybe it works for friendship, too. Maybe there’s a kind of friend love that opens you up… Maybe you didn’t have a place for it within you before, but once it finds you out, crawls inside, and makes space for itself, you can’t live without it ever again.”
― Emma Mills, This Adventure Ends

“If you only like one version of your favorite, then they’re not your favorite,” she says primly, and I can’t really argue with that.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“Sometimes...around some people, I feel like I have to, like...try, you know?...But with you-- when I'm with you, I can just...exist. You know what I mean?”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“It just feels like..." Her voice small. "Sometimes it just feels like I'm faking."
"Maybe everyone feels that way.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“I had also never realized before that I loved him, but I did. And his pain was my pain, and it hurt, but it also felt good in a strange way, knowing that we could share in it together.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“Are you ready to put the ‘fun’ in Fall Fun Fest?” he says as I slap his palm.
“I can at least put the ‘trip’ in ‘Triple F.’” A pause. “By being clumsy, I mean. Not by, like, sharing drugs with the group.” Three sets of eyes are on me, and I can’t stop myself from talking. “I don’t have any drugs. In case you were worried. Or, in case you were … expecting me to have drugs.…”
Gideon grins.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“Tragic deaths aren't avoidable. That's what Ezra said outside Sam's wake, and even though--to use Foster's phrasing--I didn't know anything about anything, I felt in this moment that Ezra was wrong. What often makes something tragic is that it can be avoided.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“I pulled out my phone and thought about calling someone, but who was there to call? And what would I even say? It was just the kind of unpleasant surprise you had to share with someone, but I didn’t have anybody to share it with.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“And my mom told me that part of growing up is just … learning that people come in and out of your life, and that there are all kinds of levels of friendship, all different types. And maybe you’ll make a friend, and you won’t see them again, but it doesn’t devalue what you had with them or the time you spent together. That’s still valid, even if it wasn’t built to last. It’s not any less … significant, you know?”
― Emma Mills, Lucky Caller

“I like you,' I say. 'I lustful-sun like you, I meteorite like you, you are the fucking pink Starburst to me.”
― Emma Mills, This Adventure Ends

“When I'm interested in a thing, I want to know about that thing. Extensively.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“The idea that it doesn't matter what over people think about you gets thrown around a lot in high school, and in many instances it's true. But I do care what certain people think of me.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“Alone didn’t always mean lonely, but sometimes it did, and even then, she reveled in it. Lunches in the music room. Afternoons reading in the park. Loneliness was a kind of wanting, but it was also this incredible freedom. Not having to rely on anyone or have anyone rely on her. No one to disappoint or be disappointed by. Alone was good and comforting and dependable.”
― Emma Mills, This Adventure Ends

“But there was something in his eyes at times that I would almost swear said something more. Some deeper sort of regard.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“Wait,” he said, and he had his hand outstretched toward me, fingertips just brushing the sleeve of my sweatshirt, gently rooting me to the spot. I wanted to shrug him off, but at the same time, I wanted to fall against him and bury my face in his shoulder. I wanted to commiserate about what had just happened, and make sure he was okay, and discuss how Stanton really is psychotic. I did none of the above.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“Maybe I don't think the first part is the best part. Maybe I like the part later on. Hearing a song so many times you know all the little ins and outs of it. Experiencing something so many times that you can just... live in it. Maybe I like that better.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“In truth, we are rarely all on the same page. More often than not, they're all on one page, and I' on a completely different one.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“But I guess it looked how some little part of me wanted things to look. Even if it was just for a second. Like some TV version of high school.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts

“It was kind of funny—the thing that had annoyed me so much about him in the beginning was what I dearly appreciated now.”
― Emma Mills, First & Then

“You're thinking really loudly.”
― Emma Mills, Foolish Hearts